flowers and teacups

mission impossible

2012-02-15T22:08:00.003-05:00

I wish you never told me. I thought we were both over this, there are still feelings left unsaid.

There's nothing I can do for you.

sweetheart

2012-02-14T10:30:00.001-05:00

Happy Hearts Day to all the loving couples and even the single loving people.

This little blue elephant is so cute, adorable, FLUFFY, and all around lovable. Thank you! ♥

Have a pleasant day!

Cameo Lover

2012-02-11T16:06:00.001-05:00

Relatively a good week. My friend and I do a lot of stuff around campus. We have this side project that we take pics/videos of us and our friends doing random activities around campus, the thing is is that our friends don't know we're taking paparazzi photos/videos of them. It's coming together quite nicely- lots of eating faces and sleeping positions all over campus. It's a mini collage of our freshmen year that we're putting together and showing later on.

I accomplished something I've always wanted to do- join a dance! Dancing is not one of my best characteristics. I'm proud of myself because yesterday my friend and I joined in the dance when the DJ played the song "Wobble Baby." It was so much fun, we danced to it twice! I didn't get home til 1:30am last night.

I have more and more people tell me I smile too much...am I always this happy? What is wrong with me. Hehe! Let's continue with school work.

Daniel Radcliffe

2012-02-05T00:52:00.002-05:00

I had a good night. You're always asking me if I had fun, of course I am. I'm very vague in my answers, but you don't need no reassurance.

By the way, Daniel Radcliffe, "Women in Black," well done, you scared me. My first celebrity crush is all grown up.

the little things

2012-02-04T14:36:00.000-05:00

I think through the hectic lifestyle of being a college student, I have forgotten my child-like wonders. I still dream of traveling and visiting Paris one day. I want to run through a city without care or worry. My interest in the city of love (cliche) began in my freshmen year of high school, my french teacher, who was the most elegant lady I've ever met and she reminded me of Jacqueline Kennedy. I suppose watching travel shows will have to do...for now.

When I hear an accordion, I think of France, I dearly love that sound. I want to see the world and Paris is my first destination. I've been to a lot of places around my hometown, especially eateries, it's time to see somewhere new. I guess exploring the city of where I go to school is next. It's not Paris, but I'll still be seeing new people and places.

I don't what made me write this, maybe because I miss the little things like my dreams of traveling, doing art-especially ceramics, and writing. I'm listening to the accordion right now, so onward and forward of finishing homework.

Have a pleasant day!

ParisDailyPhoto

alabama arkansas

2012-01-29T16:06:00.000-05:00

Failed on my plan. Oh well, I'm just going to go with the flow. If he wants to hold my hand then it's okay. If he wants me to tell about my day, he can hear it. If I want to go to the movies I know he'll take me. If it's a late night and I want to go home, he'll drive me home.

Anyway, I need to continue my homework, I'm slightly behind, but I always catch up. c: I just bought a nice agenda/planner...I love the feeling of organization.

Nice weather outside. It's lovely.

Took these pictures a couple months ago while studying.

thinking of a way

2012-01-26T15:32:00.002-05:00

I think I'm starting to like you. I don't want to, but it doesn't help when you hug me or kiss me. Would you be mad if I choose my goals and values over you? Would you understand? Is there a possibility that in the future we can be together? I'm going to hate it when you're with someone new, but it would be my regret to take.

You know the type of girl I am and I wish you hadn't fallen for me.

Knowing you, you'll know I'm making excuses.

I wonder if I can even stick to my plan.

Chuc Mong Nam Moi

2012-01-23T10:31:00.000-05:00

Have a blessed and lucky year. Be happy, especially for those born on the year of the dragon!

not there yet

2012-01-16T23:21:00.000-05:00

My mind is all over the place. I don't know what to think. I had never felt such a mixture of feelings. I wanted to be happy, I wanted to cry, I wanted it all to stop, I wanted to stop thinking, to stop fighting, and to stop putting up walls. I don't want to pull away, but I don't want to be attached, although I already feel the attachment.

tonight we are young

2012-01-12T17:12:00.000-05:00

I have been reminded on why I hate online classes. This semester will be a battle. Last night I was also reminded that I am out of shape, running in a scavenger hunt on campus is difficult, then we took a car, and at the end we ate Taco Bell...so much for a healthy lifestyle. I am staying overnight on campus tomorrow night for volunteering on Saturday. I will try to balance fun and reading time tomorrow night. I have too many distraction, particularly one, which I had a sudden revelation yesterday about.

To Do:
Day: Go to class - read read read- study group 2pm - read read read x34
Night: Play and have fun - "the night is still young"
Forever: EAT.

Have a good weekend! Be nice, be healthy, be happy! Smiling makes you more beautiful!

Downton Abbey!

2012-01-08T21:04:00.000-05:00

Smile, dear.

2012-01-08T15:49:00.001-05:00

Second semester starts tomorrow, I've never been happier to go back too school, I admit it's odd. Going back to school mean late, late nights, no more warm cooked meals from mommy, and seeing less of the family (sad sad), and no more free nights, and constant anxiety over grades.

I'm going to miss all the fun I had during winter break and all the people I've met and all the jokes we had. Have a great year everyone! A 5 WEEK WINTER BREAK is a little too long.

Be nice, be healthy, and be happy! Smiling makes you more more beautiful!

Good night

2012-01-06T01:56:00.001-05:00

Too much going on in my mind.
Too much going out, means more money spent...
I want to go back to studying.
Good gracious.

In A Nutshell

2012-01-05T14:48:00.000-05:00

Winter break is coming to a close, what a memorable winter break it has been. I went out a lot, I'm finally taking advantage of having a car. Yesterday, I went roller skating for the first time, quite a challenge. My friend helped me all the way through and I even made him fall, but yet I was not a hopeless case, as I was making progress. There was this old man roller skating, very nice person too, his advice was much more easier to comprehend than my friend's, "lift up your feet and walk."

Anyways, I'm excited to go back to the uni, now I have stuff to do, focus on, and more nightly exploration. I am still thinking of last minute schedule changes, however my schedule is extremely flexible and I have a lot of time, more studying!! Every time I write, I am always aware of my grammar and mechanics, English class has turned me very critical of my writing.

* * *

Everyone's talking about New Year's resolution and it still hasn't hit me that it's 2012. I guess when I start writing the date on papers it will. Reflecting back on 2011, I think I've done a lot of growing, I know my flaws and habits and I'm still working on improving them. I have never been happier and I feel more spirited. I hope I've grown more personable and sociable. I speak my mind more and I'm determined on finding my independence and patience.

I plan on taking a journal with me and start writing, drawing, and any ideas onto paper. I haven't done artsy things in awhile and I miss it. I also plan on at least reading a page or two a day in Stephen Hawking's "The Universe in a Nutshell." Why did I chose this book? I've had this book and I've always wanted to read it and the subject interests me and plus it's Stephen Hawking (our generation of Isaac Newton!). NERD. c:

Fancy Girl

2011-12-31T15:56:00.000-05:00

I've always wanted to attend an over-the-top New Year's party where everyone is dressed in elegance and sipping champagne, like this girl below, so fancy. This also reminds me of a book series I was reading, but have been wanting to finish. I like the black, white, grey, gold, and pink hues of these photos.

Have a happy new years, this past year has been most memorable for me and I'm glad I got to experience it with all the fine people I surround myself with. To a new year, 2012, I hope will continue to bring happiness.

Have a lovely New Year's Eve c:

L'Officiel Paris December 2011

Nocturnal

2011-12-28T16:19:00.000-05:00

I stayed out so late last night. It was an adventure and a relaxing atmosphere. It was fun wandering around town in the chilly night with no one in sight. Today they're doing another thing, a Lord of the Rings Marathon. I'm too tired to drive myself over there. I love hanging out with them, they're always on the go, active, carefree, and spontaneous. I'm always with them, more so that I have neglected hanging out with my old high school friends. But right now I'm quite comfortable on my bed watching season one of Downton Abbey. I love these British time period dramas for some reason. Now I kind of want to go over there. I guess, maybe, why not? I do have to give my textbook to my friend who is over there. ;)

chrismahanukwanzaka

2011-12-25T12:17:00.000-05:00

Merry Christmas Gwuyz!

Have a happy holiday and wishing for world peace and harmony!

Spend time with your family, whatever traditions, as long as there is love.

In Between

2011-12-20T18:07:00.001-05:00

In the midst of all the fun and happiness, I think I'm making a mistake. There are lingering feeling and questions, but yet I'm still moving forward and I don't know what to do next or where this will all lead to. I'm the definition of over-thinking. I'm at the point where I want to quit and to tell him to have a nice day, but he doesn't deserve that. The thing is, is that I don't understand why I always take a step back when things seem to be moving forward. There is no reason why I must take a step back, but the uncertainty always makes me wonder and then I put up barriers. How come I can talk to this person for the whole day and not run out of things to say, but for you it's different. We can't have endless hours of conversation, but on Monday it was nice to have you near.

Ah, indecisive girl problems. To remedy this problem I'm going to sleep. So to move forward or to take a breather and step back? Why did you have to get me a Christmas gift with a very sweet note in it?! The crazy thing is that I wear your gift all the time.

good friends and late nights

2011-12-19T13:31:00.000-05:00

This has been the most memorable winter break. For the past couple days I have been out of house and to recap, my festivities on Saturday was my friend's decorating party and it was fun until it got late into the night where, it was still fun, but interesting and weird. That night I also received an unexpected gift, I thank you so much for your thoughtfulness and how you followed me on Thursday afternoon when I was shopping. Twas a fun Saturday night, met new people and ate good food.

The next day I helped plan my friend's little holiday get together, which she called, "Secret Sexy Santas." Some of the gifts were cute, hilarious, and some were not meant to be brought home and show your parents at all. It was a nice way to get everyone together and a little reunion of old high school friends who went to different colleges. It was a blast, she kept us busy with all these fun games and one thing we can all agree on is we're too competitive and out of shape. I am sore with cuts and bruises everywhere, I liked how it wasn't just a sit down and talk thing, we got up and interacted with each other. Games included: scavenger hunt, twister, taboo, sherade-taboo, volleyball, the human knot, and tug-a-war. My friend and I won a two on two game of volley ball! Aw yeah!

It wasn't awkward at all, thank goodness. There was a little over 16 people who came and it was just a fun day. I realized we didn't take a picture with all of us, darn, I guess next time.

Celebrating the end of our first semester. A few pics of Sunday.

Difficult game of Twister.

The battlefield. Yes, we did clean it up.

all talk

2011-12-16T18:39:00.000-05:00

Finals grades for the semester have been posted and I'm pleased with what I have; although I could've done better. I can never be satisfied especially if it has to do with academics. Next semester; no play, all business. This week I was frantically looking at other majors and careers and I think I'm settled, I have no dream to become a doctor or go to medical school, but I do want to be in the health/medical field. I don't want to sacrifice years of studying, but I think I'm going to school for awhile anyways.

I visited my high school today. I'm glad I went.

The holidays are right around the corner and Christmas shopping is a lot of work, especially when I just go into a store and look for whatever catches my eyes. Thanks to my buddy I didn't shop alone, he followed and kept me accompanied. I am still not done getting gifts. I hope to ~~be nominated~~ win as the "coolest big sister."

A few holiday things are coming up, I have this "Christmas decorating get together" tomorrow, which I'm not sure whether I'm going yet, I really don't know how everyone is going to get a parking spot. My friend gathers all her high school friend and they all decorate her house and watch scary movies at night. The next day is "Secret Sexy Santas," unusual name, it's nothing sexy at all hahaa! They've adopted me into their group of friends, since most of them went to the same high school, it's a nice way to catch up, eat food, and play games.

I'm a little chatty today. Let's get that Christmas shopping done!
Happy Holidays!

Good Night New York

2011-12-14T00:40:00.000-05:00

I tried to see a meteor shower a couple nights ago, but on side of the sky the moon was incredibly bright and on the other side it was somewhat cloudy. Cannot scratch this off the bucket list, I blame light pollution. It wasn't a waste of a chilly night. I got to look at the sky, clear my head, and admire the pretty moon. My head is still full of questions, eventually they'll get solved.

I'm feeling a little sentimental. I don't know if it's because I'm listening to a playlist called, "For the hopeless romantic" or I'm just stuck in a rut. I have some plans starting tomorrow, so I'm just going to keep my mind active and busy throughout the weekend.

Chatting with my friend, but boy, look at those tired eyes and messy hair. Nothing but retail therapy tomorrow will fix. My friend got me this shirt and it's actually from New York and I love it. Good night!

out and about

2011-12-10T16:14:00.001-05:00

Tid-bits of my past week, mostly it consists of the Thursday afternoon I spent with my "big sister." It was quite an eventful day, she showed me around off campus. We did a lot of eating, browsed through the mall and met up with her friend, Michelle and lounged in her apartment. I say it was a nice "sisterly" bonding day.

There are more pictures, but I'm too lazy to put all of them up and it's all on her Facebook. There's this one photo that will not be view-able at all; we both tried on these leopard print black/white/pink onesies with crazy furry boots...that was hilarious and embarrassing! Thank you Big!

Past Saturday, 3am, talking to my friend while exchanging music likes and dislikes and eating a peanut butter sandwich, also trying to study for the stats exam. Next semester I will study harder, even though I did pretty well in my first semester, but there's always room for improvement.

Busy Bee

2011-12-10T12:34:00.001-05:00

I've been going out a lot lately. I have so much time now and I guess being out of the house and spending a crazy amount for food. Usually, I like to kick back and relax, but now I'm always on the go. As long as you have good company, then nothing bad can happen.

long hours

2011-12-06T00:23:00.001-05:00

I just came home from school.
3 hours of sleep, 12+ hours of study.
I wish you could've seen the study room.
Exams done.
Time to sleep.

living in the library

2011-12-03T17:45:00.001-05:00

Time to forget about everything else and have late night study parties by myself.
Decorated the house while classic Christmas music played. I can't wait to go Christmas shopping and visit some old friends!
STATS EXAM YOU WILL DIE.

something

2011-11-28T22:38:00.001-05:00

We danced in the car in an empty parking lot. (Laughing at your weird arm movements)

Looked at the stars, laying on the playground side by side. (Pushed me on the swings)

How cute can this story goes? (Parents calling wondering where I am)

I realize it's time to end it. (By midnight we're home)

Why did it have to be you? Why do I only feel like this when I'm with you?

Oh, how I hate this feeling. But it's a good feeling, better something than nothing at all.

the end.

2011-11-26T14:12:00.001-05:00

I get a boyfriend for a day. Every time you come back: we go out to eat, you hold my hand, and you let me drag you around and do everything I want to do (you're so sweet). We even laid on the ground and looked at the stars (It twinkled through the light pollution). No plans for tonight, we make them.

How can I continue this? What happens when you find someone else?

When I know just hours before I saw you, I saw my other friend and I know he is looking for a sign from me. Why can't I do this right? Why can't one of them just say it, ask it, or end it?

Secretly, I like one over the other. It feels like whatever I'm doing is wrong. I have no boyfriend, but why is there a sense of guilt and regret.

I wrote the above late Friday night/early Saturday morning.

Today...I guess he was feeling the same way. We both agree to stop this and remain friends. It's like what you said, "Rather that than never seeing you again." But I will always be left wondering what could happen or if we didn't wait til the last minute. I will always be left wondering how he truly feels about me.

All good things come to an end. ♥

Turkey

2011-11-22T21:14:00.001-05:00

The date should say 11/23/2011; not 11/22/2011 c:

This past week has been the most stressful week and I just can't wait for final exams (sarcasm). Yesterday I ended my day today with a nice shopping trip to the largest mall in the area and they just opened a H&M store, in which I cannot afford due to college budgeting. All three of us walked out with three yellow Forever21 bags instead.

Today I had an early "Thanksgiving dinner" with my friends at the uni's study room. It consisted of nontraditional foods, just 10 friends in a room eating tacos, rice, and drinking Capri Sun and a game of Taboo. My stomach hurts now.

It doesn't feel like the holiday Thanksgiving spirit, maybe because I was studying for half the week, when last year I would have had the week off. Anyways, have a Happy Thanksgiving! Enjoy the turkey, mashed potatoes, and stuffing...not fast food like this.

Let's be thankful, help those in need, and make create a world full of love and happiness. As a college student I am thankful that I can come home for the holidays and spend it with my family. c:

Black Friday shopping? Anyone? Count me out, no early morning lines for "deals."

what i do is

2011-11-21T23:16:00.001-05:00

Study all day, every day! The whole day...STATISTICS.

Sleepy Head

2011-11-19T21:43:00.001-05:00

I'm myself the biggest distraction. I can't get this essay done. I'm imagining on how cool it would be to go to the Bahamas. My cousin invited me to go, but I had classes and an exam to prepare for. What I give up for, for the sake of college.

Like Crazy

2011-11-18T20:50:00.001-05:00

I am confused with my life right now, it's not bad, just conflicting feelings. I think my feelings are just seem so dramatic right now because I am so tired, fours hours of sleep last night and no naps at all. I just came home from school and I am refusing any invitations to any counter-productivity. I have an essay due Tuesday that I haven't started and I must study for part one of my statistics exam and finish the part two take home exam, also due on Tuesday.

So no movie watching, but there's this movie I want to see called "Like Crazy." Felicity Jones is the lead actress in it. I don't know much about her, except she's British. I also want to see "My Week with Marilyn Monroe." This photo shoot reminds me of "I Dream of Jeannie." Yes, I watch old TV classics, I miss those TV lounging days. She is gorgeous and I love her hair and her name; she reminds me of a little bit of Zooey Deschanel.

Pretty pictures, right? It's very Retro-esque. Have a nice weekend, while I do homework and listen to the lovely and handsome Bruno Mars. I have been wanting to re-watch Marie Antoinette and I have yet to fulfill that wish.

November 2011 Elle

Tonight is the night

2011-11-12T21:03:00.001-05:00

Beware - another personal post. Jumbled thoughts and fragmented sentences, I'm sure.

What an eventful weekend.

Friday I rushed to see ma best friend who came back. Joy to the world she's back, yeah her name is Joy. The first order of business when two friends reunite - clean her house. Of course we went to Thai Orchid, they have the best Thai tea! Yum! After we went to America's favorite store - Wal Mart to look at cleaning supplies and spent the rest of the night shopping online.

Today I was greeted by my other best friend. Emily, this girl shows up unexpectantly at my house and we spent a nice afternoon mulling over make up, hair, and gossip. I love her little, "I'm outside your house."

After catching up with Emily, I went to spend more time with Joy at the mall. We bought shoes. My shopping buddy is back temporarily, secretly I hope she stays here forever. She's my car adventure partner.

* * *

I stayed up til 3am last night skyping my friend, this is one of the two persons I talk about regularly in my posts. Even though I couldn't talk aloud, because I have a sleeping sister on the other side of my room, instead I had to type while he talked, he didn't mind.

While I was talking to him my other friend messaged me on how I didn't go to this big dance thing at his campus. He is the the other guy. He is performing this weekend and he wanted me to come. I didn't have a place to stay for 3 days, but he said I was always welcome at his dorm. I think not. I am getting over him. He still hasn't said anything about us. Are we friends? More than friends? Why do I still care? Should I take his advice and give the guy above a chance? What happens when he comes back for a weekend, I can't just go run off with him - again, like last time.

* * *

Okay, now I go do homework.

But let me reminisce on my friend's homecoming. Now I have someone I can tell everything to.

Pouty fish face. c:

Happee

2011-11-10T16:23:00.001-05:00

It is so nice outside, it makes me even happier. I love weather like this: clear skies, warm rays, and a cool breeze. To celebrate such a day like this, the three of us went out for lunch, we opted to eat outside too.

And now I'm back on campus. What a chill day, a nice sushi lunch and boba thai tea to start off the 3 day weekend. This has to be one of my favorite boba tea place, but I don't know how to spell the name, it's a unique name too.

Food makes me happy.

This upcoming weekend - essays essays exams :c

love letter

2011-11-05T20:40:00.001-04:00

Thursday night four girls studying the whole night. Yesterday night, I attended one of my first school related volunteer function, and it was so cold.

Have I mentioned I've been eating out so much, all these new and different restaurants! Healthy or unhealthy? I don't know, but I'm always hungry. Hahaha!

First Saturday since school started, that I just did nothing. I slept til the afternoon, watched "Memoirs of a Geisha" and a whole bunch of YouTube videos mostly consisting videos of flash mobs and renewing my love for Young the Giant and relating every quote from 500 Days of Summer to my life.

"There's no such thing as LOVE, its just a fantasy" I never want to believe this, but it's hard not to.

I hate how I'm sitting here listening to all the music you've shown me and I don't even know how I feel about you. LE SIGH.

And I'm sorry friend in the summer, my feelings are waning for you. Maybe it wasn't the right time. You promised me in the future, that it can be real someday.

This quote:

"People change. Feelings change. It doesn't mean that the love once shared wasn't true and real. It simply just means that sometimes when people grow, they grow apart"

"A guy and a girl can be just friends, but at one point or another, they will fall for each other...maybe temporarily, maybe at the wrong time, maybe too late, or maybe forever"

Happy Halloween

2011-10-31T10:00:00.000-04:00

Happy Halloween!!!
Be safe. I'll be stuck on campus, while everyone is "party rocking;" as kids would say nowadays.

mindless

2011-10-30T01:37:00.000-04:00

We're back to square one...again, what is happening. Why do I let these kind of things happen, against my better judgement.

Anyways, have a nice weekend!

Night Vision Binoculars

2011-10-29T17:38:00.000-04:00

How is my first semester in college?

Campus wide game "Human vs. Zombies" is over, no more late night running...until next semester. Those guys with nerf guns on Thursday night...we can no longer be friends, just kidding.

The college life is too fun. Everyday, thus far, has been a new adventure.

I have noticed since starting college:

-My music has changed, it used to be Kpop 24/7, but now I'm reverting back to my old indie/alternative/British bands. Oh, how I miss you Arctic Monkeys and The Kooks

-I'm more spirited, I'm more independent; usually I would stick to a person, but now I'm doing things on my own. I'm so proud of myself. Hehehe.

-I show my bubbly side more, no longer am I afraid to act like a total fool whether it be breaking out dancing or singing. All around, I'm very happy, quirky girl.

-I like my study times in a quiet corner with The Killers music playing in the background.

* * *

I'm usually confined on campus, but I have been off campus a few times, I spent an afternoon with my "big sister" eating Chipotle and Frozen Yogurt and browsed around pet stores. We have a lot in common. Goal: To become closer and have a lifelong friendship with her, even after college.

A little pics here and there of my week. Also I met The Fray in a private session [and made it back to class on time] and I also won tickets to meet Colbie Caillat, unfortunately could not attend.

* * *
Some friends and I went to this Greek place, but I ordered a cheeseburger...
* * *

* * *

My "big sister" and their "big brother" are close friends. Those are all his "littles."

They made us Halloween gift baskets and mini cupcakes.

My "big."

These Dancing Shoes

2011-10-24T20:56:00.000-04:00

I like simple yet understated pictures, no special angles or wacky effects, natural and close up. I like these portrait style photos. She's so photogenic, I'm a little envious, I always look weird in my pictures. Sigh. Haha!

She kind of reminds me of Clemence Poesy. Anyhow, Karlie Kloss, you look so graceful.

* * *

Tomorrow, I will be going to a meet and greet with The Fray and hopefully make it back for class on time. A big gamble, I know, since I have a stats exam this week. Also tomorrow is the beginning of the campus wide game human vs. zombies, basically a man/hunt - tag game with nerf guns and socks.

I feel very busy this week, so much to do and so many events to attend to, when I said I'll take it slow my freshmen year, I totally lied to myself.

And how am I feeling, with those gloomy and dismal feelings post below? Never better, while I try to tell myself "I hate you" and not feel anything when I see your pictures as you enjoy college.

My mind is scattered, I have lots on me mind, mostly academics and Bruno Mars.

Karlie Kloss by Gabrielle Revere: Life Magzine source

uncertainty with a side of fried potatoes, please

2011-10-21T09:33:00.000-04:00

I was talking to my friend and I have always been a "connection person;" appearance and personality are factors too, but I can say that I have always looked for the connection/spark in the other person. We were talking about various people and I wondered, what if you have connections with a few people, how do you know which one is the right connection?

Anyways I have yet to find the solution my quizzical equation. I have 2 online exams this weekend and hopefully I can start updating my personal blog more, but having the time to sit down and review/edit posts are too tedious to do while on campus when I'm always on the move and nights are for sleeping. The weekend is my only personal free time, wish it was longer.

There's too many personal posts, but I like to clear my thoughts aloud, it makes more sense when I see it or hear it and now you guys are viewing it, whomever you may be.

Have a lovely weekend. Yes, I'm being very confused and somewhat sick of feeling these weird feelings that are un-explainable to me and very unaccustomed to me.

boundaries

2011-10-13T15:07:00.001-04:00

I'm in school, I'm drained of energy, but I'm putting on a show so nobody suspects what I'm really feeling inside. I need an outlet and for now my blog is my audience...for those who read this in 5, 10, or 15 years from now.

He's getting attached but for only so long, while I wonder how long I'll be attached to you. What do I do?! Why do I over think, over complicate, and why can't I voice myself to them.

Now I must channel this frustration towards my homework and attack it....just kidding.

I may be just over dramatic.

2011-10-11T12:06:00.002-04:00

Can you explain what we are? We hang out, you call me late nights, you hold my hands like I'm yours; but you're never here.

What if I'm holding out on another opportunity because I'm waiting for you, will we ever get anywhere? Will we be able to pick up where we left off? If you only knew my feelings.

"Give him a chance." That's all you can say? If you knew how confused when I'm with him, the stories I wish I never knew about him.

But what about us? I need the closure, but I wonder if I can ever get it out of you.

* * *

It doesn't have to be this complicated.

Mutual Understanding

2011-10-09T17:07:00.001-04:00

When my feelings for you had been extinguished, you reappear and light it up again. Why do you do that? You're not mine, I'm not yours. But you treat me like I belong to you, but then you leave again and tell me not to ponder about it. We're not a real thing.

You tell me to give him a chance, but why? You keep coming back, how can I give him a chance, when you're here. Tell me what I am to you. You can't put me like this expecting me to wait for you when I don't know if you'll do the same.

Do you even care? Why would you say, "Give him a chance?" I thought you'd want me to be with you.

In The Night Sky

2011-10-08T18:22:00.004-04:00

This college thing is overwhelming, but I have to say I'm not tired of it yet and I'm having a blast on campus. Too much to do and too many people to meet.

This week of school ended on a good night, I had the best boba tea. It was an amazing way to end the day, to have a nice chilled mango and jelly boba tea. Kaleisia is where my friends and I went, it's a cute little tea lounge! $4.00 was worth it, more satisfying than the Green Tea Frappucccino at Starbucks.

I've noticed that this week I spent so much on food, I don't know if everything is overpriced or I just bought more food than usual. So guess what...freshmen 15! Just kidding.

Anyways, here are some pics of the past month of things that I've seen and done in and around the uni campus.

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My friend took me to the top of roof of some garage building. It's a very nice place to enjoy the scenery and the wind. The overview of campus at night, that's the "non-water tower" tower.

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Did this for my friend's dorm, has a cool effect. It's a city scene for those who are a little unimaginative.

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Crazy Cajun.

(trying to study...fail.)

I need to post regularly. Anyway, have a happy rest of October.

***Please don't take my pics

Holly Golightly

2011-09-23T10:57:00.001-04:00

I have always been interested in makeup, but I don't wear much nowadays, apart from being lazy and I don't really know the "correct" way to put on makeup. I wish I had a personal makeup artist for those days when I want to put some color on.

I love looking at all types of makeup, all the colors and variety. It's almost how Holly Golightly feels when she looks at Tiffany's.

I wish I had a pretty desk with pretty makeup on it.

I'm suppose to be reading my notes, but I'm too distracted. That's okay.

If my eyes had lids then I would wear makeup all the time, thanks to my Asian-ness, but however I love my eyes anyways. I think I'll go watch Marie Antoinette this weekend.

Makeup should enhance your beauty, not hide it.
TGIF c:

secret stories and lies

2011-09-18T00:25:00.001-04:00

I had a fun week and weekend. Interesting stuff came up.
Impromptu late night movies downtown and saw Contagion Friday night and the most interesting Saturday with ma friend Emily.

In all the fun and games, this has been plaguing my mind:
People move on so quickly, they forget each other and find someone else.

If you have a good time with someone you can't share your happiness, no matter how happy you are someone gets hurt.

I don't want things to change, but I can't keep them from happening. Whatever happens happen, right?

The most honest and true quote:

"A guy and a girl can be just friends, but at one point or another, they will fall for each other...maybe temporarily, maybe at the wrong time, maybe too late,
or maybe forever."

-500 Days of Summer

What's a girl suppose to do?
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2011-09-15T23:30:00.002-04:00

Hello!

I'm still at school and since I have a little time after some much studying and homework. I'm pretty sure I aced my first college exam, which I took earlier this afternoon. It was a STATs exam.

This week has consisted of many webcam pictures with people (too many, a misuse of time management) and torturous studying. I sweated over that STATs exam for nothing, excuse my confidence. Hhaa!

Study Study Study.

Too many papers. Water is the best. The best energy.

Have a nice upcoming weekend!

An adventure awaits!

Just Dance.

2011-09-09T18:39:00.001-04:00

Blogging is the last thing on my mind right now. However, I love blogging. What a contrast, but I didn't say I hate to blog, so all is good.

I was browsing online and I saw these "fashion" themed videos. I really like the first video, its really cute and I love choreographed dance, watch the video and you'll see what I mean. The clothing style choices are superb too! Very creative video and well done too.

The second video I suppose is awkward, but still fun. Its like watching people dance on those dance games on the Wii. Someone like me, who has no dance experience.

Westfield Stratford City Mall London

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Lanvin Fall/Winter 2011-2012

At least they look good and perfectly styled? HAHAHA!

Enjoy your weekend, while I go through the immense pile of homework!

**videos do not belong to me

Talking to the Moon

2011-09-02T20:19:00.000-04:00

Two weeks of college done. Less than or equal to 20 hours of sleep this week. I had four hours of sleep last night. I'm in dire need of recuperating. I was so sleepy in school today, luckily I had only two classes today.

Today, was the earliest I have ever went home...4:30pm.

Yesterday, I practically spent the whole day, after I was finished with classes, with my friend; watching videos in his dorm, looking for events that served free food, and looking at the sky on rooftops. He calls it babysitting, I call it keeping him accompanied.

I am now super tan. It's so hot walking around campus. That there's no point in trying to look "nice" or "fashionable." You sweat bullets just walking for two minutes.

The one thing I realized that is so important in college, among many other things, is my glasses.

I would be so lost without you.

Anyways, hopefully, I'll get back to posting normally with actual posts, instead of having it all on college, college, college...it's an exciting time of your (my) life!

What bad lighting...my face is triple the darkness of my arms. Hahaha!

My thoughts are all jumbled and bits of this and that, I know.

Have a nice weekend, a three day weekend for me...full of studying.

doe eyed girl

2011-08-27T14:29:00.000-04:00

My first week of college is over! It feels like I've been here forever! This week was so slow, but amazingly fun! I met lots of people and participated in many organizations over the past week, partly because there was free food. People here are so unimaginably nice and friendly!

But for every single day of this past week I've came home at different varying times. I'm a commuter student carpooling with my friend and her older brother. The latest I had stayed was on Tuesday and didn't get home til 1:30 am and Friday where I didn't get home til 2:30 am. I'm not a party-er, we just go to events and hang out in friends' dorms.

Even through all the days events I have managed to get my studying on. There are lots of distractions, but I'm trying to keep my mind focus. There will be plenty of time to play. Hahaha!

Some of the things I did was attend a LAN party (this computer/online game stuff) and my friend and I attended lots of Asian organizations, we made spring rolls on Thursday, but one of my favorites was going to a parking garage rooftop at night and watch these kids practice their hip hop and choreography.

So yes, I'm very excited but my college and all the people I've met and I'm just "doe eyed" at all these "adventures" around campus. One thing for sure is that it is so HOT.

I'm also debating whether to change my major...to the premed track, which either bio-medical science or biology. Something I never thought I would do, join a sorority, I plan to, but not yet.

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With all the fun and excitement, I'm still hung up on one kid...

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Til next time good luck and have fun!

Shades of Blue

2011-08-18T17:25:00.000-04:00

Don't mind my mopey-ness in the previous post.

Anyways I have returned back home, its a relief but then a sad homecoming. Leaving my family and friends and seeing how much has changed since I left my birthplace, also on returning home having a dear friend leave as school begins next week.

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I had a lovely week up north and the weather is so fine, compared to this humidity! I really do enjoy a nice barbecue out in the open air...if I lived there I would eat outside everyday! It was too pretty in the late afternoons and early evenings.

I didn't really take pictures and most of my pictures consist of family members, especially my little two year old cousin. Man, that kid is adorable!

I ate so much during that whole week and of course went to my favorite ice cream parlour, three times! You can never get enough of this place! ITS AMAZING. I have never tasted ice cream like it before.

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Isn't the sky pretty? This place is so cute, it oozes the retro feel and they still even wear the old white uniforms with the caps too!

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We also took a tour of this beer factory...it was like a tiny town for beer lovers.

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I'm still feeling a little sluggish, but I'll return to my normal self in due time, just let me listen to soppy love songs and when school starts again I leave this state of mind.

But importantly I love this tiny town that is ridden with bumpy roads and lined with churches...seriously there are so many churches!

make a wish

2011-08-17T15:23:00.003-04:00

I had a lovely time on my vacay;

now I'm recovering from being ill,

being too involved,

being too head over heels,

waiting too long,

and being too late...
♥

Friday is Forever

2011-08-05T00:29:00.003-04:00

What a week, I am so tired right now I can feel my eyes drooping. This week has been so hectic. Monday went to visit my university to get to know the surroundings...it was okay, hopefully it gets better once classes start. Tuesday I slept in and Wednesday I spent the whole day with my friend as she dropped a bombshell on me that she's leaving to go work. Tear Tear, where will I find another shopping buddy?

But today (Thursday or half an hour ago)...I did my fist outdoorsy thing, the nature stuff, ya know? KAYAKING. Man, its a workout for your arms. My friend calculated the distance and we kayaked around 4 miles! Props to this girl here, as I never usually do any strenuous activity or even workout. I will probably feel it next morning. Hahaha.

So pretty much we kayaked the whole afternoon, went to this renown downtown taco bus, its delicious, and had some fun strolling downtown and eating gelato. I would say this was a fun way to conclude this week. I will be packing for my vacation this weekend, so see you in a week and a half!

Whoo hoo! Kayaking, its fun!
Although we may look nice, we were sweating bullets!

Yay for making new friends, catching up with old ones, and saying goodbye.
(Although it is never a goodbye)
c:

Red Rambling

2011-07-26T18:30:00.000-04:00

Two more weeks until I head off with my family to visit hometown! I am excited to see my family and friends who I haven't seen in almost six years! I ready for some of the best ice cream, they have this very cute and classic ice cream stand and its pretty famous in that tiny town and the line is definitely worth the wait!!

It is a good way to end the summer! Then five days after I return home I begin the university...I am so NERVOUS! Luckily I know several people who will be freshmens too! But it still does not help the fact that I'm still shaking in my boots!

This is a random picture that has nothing to do with this post, but the colors are to die for, I'm not a big fan of the color red, but natural red...unlike the plastic ones on toys and neon signs.

My mom was just cleaning the fruits and it was so pretty.

They're not apples by the way.

So far this whole week I watched every Harry Potter movie for each day...the days were not wasted!

Fairy Land

2011-07-20T19:33:00.001-04:00

If I could frolic in light clothes in the evening, I would. The colors are so beautiful, its so dreamy and quirky in a good way.

Very whimsical. Now my belief in fairies and magic is reinforced.

Karen magazine; Amanda Pratt featuring Andressa Fontana

9 3/4

2011-07-16T15:37:00.000-04:00

Yesterday I just saw Harry Potter and I am on a post Harry Potter high.

Although it was different from the book, but I still thought it was amazing and that it stayed true to the Harry Potter magic. There were many times that I wanted to cry, a small amount of it was because it was a touching moment, but for the finalization...Harry Potter is the only reason I would ever go to the movie theater.

I will be seeing it twice, again, I am glad to turn out my pockets [$20] it supports the Harry Potter franchise and that I help contribute it to a fantastic opening weekend.

My friend thought I was crazy...crazy in love, that's what it was! She called me NERD NERD NERD over and over again.

I'm getting a little cheesy and crazy with this, but who knew these cute little kids

would turn into mega super stars?!

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My friend and this super HP fanatic...me. I remember when I was younger I wrote myself this Hogwarts acceptance letter and tried to make a quill using my pen. Hahaha!

Thanks J.K. Rowling for a great series!

hot summer

2011-07-12T15:19:00.000-04:00

This past month has been a very dry and HOT summer. All I've been doing is freaking out over my schedule for this fall and imagining myself on my first day on campus....like a deer in the headlights.

Speaking of headlights...I'm talking about cars now, for those who think otherwise. My dad has been making me drive on the highway every other day so that I get use to it, but I already found a carpool buddy since I'm commuting to the university.

So far, I haven't been doing a lot except making flowers and doing the usual like going to the same three people's houses over and over again, maybe two since I'm pretty sure I won't be able to just drop in whenever I want to now, other than that I've also shopping regularly and eating out and driving my brother around town.

This is the first summer that I had my car and it is perfectly useful because I have been meaning to try out this French and Vietnamese cafe.

Harry Potter, a couple more days!!!

Yes, very boring post...anyways have a nice day!

the smell of dedication and determination

2011-07-06T16:35:00.001-04:00

Oh I must share some of my excitement, I found out I passed my AP Psychology exam!!! Through the painful year of non stop reading and studying and plenty of worried nights, I passed and the surprise was I got a 4 out of the usual scale of 5!! I am ecstatic! I can't believe I tried to drop out of that class! I was one of the remaining 4 who stayed in that class out of the 20+ students in the beginning of the year and 4 is my lucky number!!!!

To the best class ever and to the best teacher!!!

It looks like I'm picking my nose haha!

non-denim

2011-07-06T16:08:00.000-04:00

I had this Urban Outfitters gift card for awhile now and I finally got to use it. My mom has been telling me to use all my gift cards before summer end [an excuse for shopping, YES!!!] and I traveled 30 minutes to one of the biggest malls here in this small town.

I was thoroughly disappointed that the purse I wanted from the Urban Outfitters website, just looking at it in store was not the same...luckily I did not order, as I am a skeptic online shopper. For some reason I couldn't find anything in Urban Outfitters, partly they were really expensive.

So here are some stuff that I bought since summer started... minus the Hollister and American Eagle stuff.

The shorts [for some reason I'm drawn to non denim shorts] and bracelets were from the Forever 21 and the hat, shoes, and scarf were from UO. I also bought my brother a jacket. I love the scarf, especially the color, it has a nice tie dye look to it.

I found my bow earrings I've always wanted....also from Forever 21, I'm currently wearing them now as I battle sniffles from a sudden allergy attack.

Have a nice day! Counting down the days when I go up north for a week!

Leonard's Custards here I come!

"I like my money right where I can see it - hanging in my closet." - Sex and The City

"When women are depressed, they eat or go shopping. Men invade another country. It's a whole different way of thinking." -Elayne Bossler

you only think that you love me

2011-07-01T19:17:00.000-04:00

I have just watched Pride and Prejudice twice this week [I still have not finished reading the book, I keep leaving it off in the middle, dear me]. I cannot help but be swooned by the love story of Elizabeth and Mr. Darcy and also Jane with Mr. Bingley. I'm just in love with the whole movie.

Is it weird how I wish these characters were real? And have a Mr. Darcy or Mr. Bingley of my own? Hahaha!!

Right now I'm rooting for Anne Shirley and Gilbert Blythe in the current book I'm reading, that's how I'm celebrating Canada day.

Love stories from hundreds and hundreds of years ago seem so romantic, somewhat unrealistic, but there is something sweet about it.

Pretty Posie Pink

2011-06-26T15:54:00.001-04:00

Summer is going great so far! Food, food, salty food, boba, boba, pizza, shopping, shopping, shopping, shopping, makeup, shopping, sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep....this is the first summer that I'm doing any online courses or summer classes.

Whoo hoo more shopping...thanks to all these wonderful gift cards I can update my closet for friendly college clothes, I'm starting a new school year and why not look the part? I don't look like a college student..sadly, in my opinion.

Recently, my friend convinced me to buy this $28 bottle of Benefit Cosmetic cheek/lip stain...I've always wanted one and now I'm a proud owner of Posie Tint. It works pretty good...I love it. Whenever I'm with her I spend more than I want to and shop in places I don't usually shop at...oh she's great fun.

I've always wanted pretty pink lips!

delicate florals

2011-06-22T17:33:00.001-04:00

I love editorials about the Victorian, Renaissance, Enlightenment and so much more. I believe I have been born in the wrong time. I'm such a history junkie. My friends make fun of me for watching those British dramas on PBS Masterpiece.

But isn't it beautiful? This is Emily Blunt for Vanity Fair...kinda reminds me of Marie Antoinette, I wonder how many times I'll talk about Marie Antoinette. Look at those shoes with the birds on them! So pretty!

So many thoughts are going through my head as I write this post.

Anyways, have a lovely day!

drunk zombies

2011-06-17T23:36:00.000-04:00

I just had the longest two days of my life. I recently came home from my orientation for college and man, those movies where they depict college students as drunk zombies....WRONG! The college students I met were so upbeat and keeping us (new freshies) on our feet the whole time. They are also very loud...singing the Backstreet Boys and Katy Perry at every chance they got.

I'm exhausted and for the past two days I probably got a total sleep of 6-7 hours while gaining 15 pounds from the immense amount of food they served.

I'm a usually an above and beyond student, but after these two days I'm now afraid of how I will do in college....I am quite nervous of taking Introduction to Statistics I and online courses of Anatomy and Physiology I lecture and lab....all I could do is stare at my schedule, a dead, blank stare because literally I will be dead after just one semester!!!

A little messing around with some camera fun

Sans makeup, not that I wear much anyways.

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After, we grabbed some sushi, to calm the nerves.

We went a little crazy and ordered too much.

Tonight Tonight

2011-06-10T18:43:00.002-04:00

Oh better days are ahead!

I'm sitting here with mango boba tea, listening to Korean music, a little change since I've been listening to The Killers and Foster the People nonstop. My little family graduation party is on Sunday and I am actually looking forward to it, although I think my relatives didn't even know I was graduating. Haha

This is what I wore for my graduation.

A Forever21 nude/creme polk-a-dot dress with Target suede wedges (thanks mom!)
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And these were my flowers my dad and siblings bought for me along with graduation goodies which included lots of candy, a Starbucks gift card, Breakfast at Tiffany's, and a HELLO KITTY "piggy bank."

I love flowers and was quite ecstatic when I got them.

Just like when I got my corsage. c:

Thanks my wonderful family for a great night and all 365 days of every year!

believe

2011-06-08T18:26:00.000-04:00

I don't know how I feel, I have mixed feelings. I cannot control this, and it gives me anxiety. I don't want to face the unexpected unprepared. Maybe that is why I over analyze, I make things much more complicated than it already is...when in fact, it is so simple.

I am scared of where things will go and how it go.

But all I ask is to please be patient with me.

I know you understand, as you have told me, even when I didn't believe.

only the young

2011-06-07T18:55:00.000-04:00

I graduated yesterday from high school.

Its bittersweet.

Thanks to my family and friends, I love you guys dearly.

Switzerland

2011-06-01T15:29:00.002-04:00

Summer

JULY 15, 2011

Emma Watson for Marie Claire.

I love neutral colors! My whole graduation attire, which consist of my dress and shoes, is a neutral/sandy/nude color.
5 more days until the cap and gown.

this is the world we live in

2011-05-30T19:52:00.000-04:00

It has been a hectic weekend and I'm ten times tanner than I was a week ago.

I met one of my second cousin who has been kind enough to offer me college help, thanks Teenah and your family for the early graduation gift...whooo hooo shopping time!

My last day of school is tomorrow. I'm not ready to leave high school.

To supplement my soon to be realization of adulthood and independence, while I desperately cling on to my childhood I have been distracting myself with The Killers [Brandon Flowers...speechless] and looking at UO online for a nice, slouchy, medium sized bag that I can just throw anything I want in there. I'm incredibly picky and a bit of a skeptic when it comes to online shopping...so I will take my time reading the reviews and ratings.

Thank you to my math buddy who gave me this UO gift card.

Brandon Flowers-you never fail to impress me!

Teenage Dream

2011-05-23T19:34:00.002-04:00

Prom itself was okay, I'm glad I went to prom even though I was moping around not wanting to go. I think the best part of prom was the before and after prom: rushing around, getting ready (not to mention, also being late; one of my flaws), picking people up, and the sushi dinner. Then the after prom where the number of people started to dwindle down and running out to the beach late into the night.

It was so fun...I would have regretted it if I didn't go.

Thanks to my friends who made the day more memorable!

All the pictures are floating around Facebook...haha
Thanks for the corsage B.T. and Emily for organizing this. I'm sorry I was late, :D
you know me so well that you knew this would happen.

It was hard taking/finding a good picture with all of us...a picture that nobody looks outlandish, which we make a habit out of actually. LOVE.
c:

Thai Orchid

2011-05-20T20:36:00.001-04:00

Senior week is over and prom is tomorrow...I think I'm more excited for the stuff before prom than prom itself, like getting ready, pictures, and the dinner part. I'm not one for loud and crowded places where I must shout to be heard or fist pump to get noticed, but I guess I must make the best of it. Prom is the rite of passage for every American teen right?

And the best way to end the week is Friday sushi lunch! We went to a Thai restaurant, an authentic Thai restaurant where the chef can make sushi too! Their Thai tea was the best Thai tea I have ever tasted...I will come back there just for their tea.

We had some Mexican roll, some sort of shrimp sushi roll, a seared tuna dish, rainbow roll, seaweed salad, and a veggie dish...it was amazing!

Thai Orchid...I love your food!

minimalistic

2011-05-15T17:00:00.002-04:00

Asian models! I would like to see more of them on magazines and editorials.

I happen to cross this website and I thought she looked stunning!
The combination of portrait and black and white style is something I love. There is a subtle seduction in these photographs that I think is captured by her beauty but also by the simplicity of her attire of mens' wear

Liu Yifei for Harper's Bazaar China May 2011

Beautiful pictures! Non?

N.E.R.D.

2011-05-11T19:42:00.000-04:00

I am sitting here cutting out paper hearts, I don't know why, but it's comforting. My days are now...free, I haven't been able to describe my days as free since a week ago. All I have to worry about is pre-calculus, which I'm pretty much a whiz at...the giant nerd is coming out of me teehee.

My days are so relaxed now that I don't even know what to do...sleep and refresh Facebook several times a day. I wish my pre-calc teacher would give us homework. My friends would laugh at me.

Also I switched from using internet explorer to Google chrome a few days ago. My friend told me I was way behind the band wagon. I just never cared about the latest internet stuff.

Dinner and my mom's homemade boba tea, unfortunately the package said strawberry, but it taste like cherry and I'm not so much of a fan of cherry flavours.

Just A Feeling

2011-05-06T22:38:00.000-04:00

AP Exams are over! Whoo hoo, I have lifted 12,489,735,325 pounds off my shoulders instantly once I left school on Thursday approximately at 12:11 pm.

I even went out and bought my prom dress...I will not dwell into this subject besides that I love my pleated dress and to the silver mermaid type dress I left behind, I'm sorry I can't take you home; my mom does not like mermaid anything.

This describes my happiness that I am practically done with high school.

Hooray for more free time!!

Will and Kate

2011-04-28T18:35:00.001-04:00

Whoo Hooo

Congrats

Mario Testino- Official Wedding Program

affi(x)ation

2011-04-27T17:44:00.005-04:00

Pastel and neutral coloring nail polish are so fresh and young looking. If I could stand having my nails painted I would be painting them every week with my collection of nail polish. But instead I just marvel at looking at all the color polishes. [I love pretty, cutesy looking thing...that's why I love the movie Marie Antoinette so much].

Aren't they refreshing colors?!

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Continuing with my obsession for neutral colors I've been looking for shoes for my graduation. It will be on baseball field so I was looking for something super casual, fun, and cute. I got them for such a steal too, cause this girl is on budget crunch, and I wanted shoes that I could wear again and again.

Here was the theme of my idea for my shoes:

And I did find my graduation shoes! Under $10 too, its suede and a camel/nude color!

I will be taking my AP exams next week so I will be studying from here on out until May 5th, til then, enjoy!

Polyvore: Essie Nail Polish & Urban Outfitter Heels

Blue Skies Again

2011-04-23T15:13:00.002-04:00

My high school days are winding down, I know before I said I feel nonchalant about the whole ordeal, but I seriously will miss it, it has been the best 3 years of my life, after I transferred to my current high school after freshmen year. Oh, it seems I just met my cool cats and now we're separating. I will definitely keep in touch with all of them. I don't know why I'm getting so touchy on this now. But seriously, I'm done with high school, this has been the most stressful year...I'm anxious for college!

All this sentimental feelings are reinforced as I just came home from a beach clean up and it was amazingly fun with everyone there. I just couldn't resist jumping into the water, even though most of lost track of time as we plopped into the water and only one person had a bathing suit.

Anyways have a nice Easter weekend!

Oh my first crush is getting married! I'm a loser, but the royal wedding is almost here. Anyone watching?

***please don't take my picture

i hate this love song...

2011-04-15T18:14:00.004-04:00

My AP Exams are coming up, last minute cramming and study groups for the next couple weeks. I just have a little less than six weeks before high school is over! WOW!!!! Although the impact of high school being over won't happen for me until the end of summer when I realize I won't be back to my high school campus.

School consumes my life. Should I go to prom? Is it weird how I want to go to another school's prom than my own school?

My friend bought me this dress for my birthday, it's an adorable little thing and I love it. I take these pictures off my tiny phone and I'm a horrible person to take pictures of or with...teehee...I'm just awkward.

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Will anyone be watching the Will and Kate Royal Wedding? I know I will, I'm that kind of person who loves fairy tales and imagining my own wedding, and plus Prince William was my first crush...in third grade.

Ah, three day weekend...retail therapy? YAH! I also must finish watching Ponyo this weekend, I love the Japanese animation style.

And Happy Birthday to Emma Watson! I'm your biggest fan!

Relay For Life

2011-04-10T15:46:00.006-04:00

I'm really tired, luckily I have a 4 day weekend to recuperate. As president of Multicultural Committee, we decided to participate in Relay For Life. It is a cancer organization. We did this at the last minute on Friday. We were unprepared, by a long shot.

Friday after school we went straight to the place where it was held and then proceeded to stay up all night walking or running the relay. At least one person from each time had to be on the course.

All of us stayed up the whole night. It was hard finding something to do to pass the time...most of us stayed up for 25 hours and longer, depending on what time they woke up for school on that Friday. I stayed up for 26 hours. It was fun until after 3am where the fatigue was setting in. Even if you tried to fall asleep, they were just blaring music throughout the whole night. Who loves or even wants to hear a remix of "Grenade" by Bruno Mars at 6am?

I'm glad I did it for finding a cure for cancer, as the saying was "Cancer does not sleep."
As much as we complained about inadequate sleep and the loud music, it was fun and worthwhile.

it's like candy

2011-04-06T19:47:00.003-04:00

I have never dyed my hair, I have thought about it, but why ruin my natural hair? Although I have always dreamed of being blonde...being blond for one reason only.

For this: Cotton Candy Hair, I guess that's what the cool cats call it.

It's so pretty and whimsical and probably very damaging to my hair.

I like the subtle cotton candy color, not the extreme neon colors.

The movie Marie Antoinette (I love this movie, I watched it a couple dozen times...teehee)

kind of made me wish I was blonde so I can put put light pink in my hair and wear a floral headband and prance around in a ballroom gown and eat sweets all day.

pictures do not belong to me
first picture- Courtney Vogler by Elliot & Erick Jimenez for Material Girl
do not know the rest of the pictures main sources, sorry!

yesterday, today, tomorrow

2011-04-01T22:12:00.012-04:00

Yesterday I visited my future university...and it had to be one of the most horrible weather ever experienced. On the way home of the college trip, it was such a bad downpour of rain, cars were parked on the side of the highway because it was so bad, we were literally driving blind! This huge semi truck was leaning against two cars! Quite an unforgettable scene.

Today, I had plans to replan the pizza/mall trip, but it has been moved tomorrow. It keeps getting postponed, so I went to the park with my little brother, it was lovely, 100% sunshine. I also dropped off my friend's birthday gift, this girl is now using the vehicle that has been sitting in the garage. Haha!

Tomorrow I'll be sending my reservation/admission ticket finalizing my choice, I keep putting it off, but putting it off makes me think more and more about other options, when I don't want to think about them.

The future is so uncertain, that's what I'm afraid of...

For now, this song will help me melt my worries away.
Not that you care about my worries, nor is it an important, so just listen to this great song!!!

video uploaded by onenineeightfour

The Underdog

2011-03-26T20:13:00.000-04:00

Spring break is not off to a great start and I'm quite mad, but I'm just going to sleep on it.

I really love Nestea's Lemon Iced Tea, so tempting to drink it, but it has so much sugar and lots of caffeine. I don't like to drink much caffeine especially in the evenings; I'll be doing jumping jacks at 3am! It's sitting right in front of me, and I drank half the can already.

Yummy lunch, I'm just getting hungry looking at this picture, and I already ate it.

Yesterday, right after school I drove my brother to his "friend" and after that I bolted to the mall to scout for little birthday gifts. I managed to do all of that in one hour, even before my mom got home from work. I am quite proud of that, probably because I always take so long at looking for gifts (but these were tiny, easy gifts), the traffic was cooperating also, or I was driving fast.

They were so cute. I said I was going to save money, but I had to buy one for myself. I was going to give the pink one to my friend, but I'm the one with black hair...ahaha!

I love Forever21 accessories!

Vogue Girl

2011-03-20T15:58:00.000-04:00

Spring is officially here! I was browsing through a website and found this awhile ago. I just love the pictures and everything about it, the theme, the colors, their makeup, the freshness, and especially the flowers!

Isn't it a gorgeous editorial spread? It is the Korean version of "Teen Vogue" called "Vogue Girl." I have seen some of their editorial spreads and I really like their stuff more, although I don't understand a word (character); I wish I could get their magazines instead. Is that possible?

I believe this girl, Min Hyo Rin, is an actress or singer, not quite sure.

I just love the first two pictures. It just evokes the early innocence of spring.

So enjoy!

young and free

2011-03-17T17:12:00.001-04:00

No doubt that the weather is simply amazing here and spring is in the air, although it feels like summer. This means graduation is closer and so is finalizing my decision on colleges. .......my brain is fried.

Went to the beach this past weekend, stuffed my face with all the greasy foods: chips, hamburgers, hot dogs...more hamburgers! I'm not a beach person, but there were few people lying out in the sand and it wasn't crazy spring breakers, but all family and little kids. I avoid the beach altogether when it's spring break season.

The beach was quiet and minimal, just perfect! The downsize was that the water was freezing, I was almost ready to jump into the water too.

Happy St. Patrick's Day!!

To Japan,

2011-03-14T18:23:00.002-04:00

My condolences and prayers.

I believe you will make it through. I mean, you were not a third world country, but one of the top, strong, and innovative economic countries, so therefore I know you will surpass this devastation and become more beautiful and prosperous once again.

All My Loving

2011-03-09T17:43:00.001-05:00

I love the Beatles. I love Paul's little head shake when he sings. I'm in love with the 1964 Paul McCartney.

The weekend was hectic, I had relatives come over and it was very stressful, and also I had turned eighteen. Adulthood, how exciting is it not? Not, really. A few months left and I must make my decision on my whereabouts for my future path. How crazy is that?

I'm bombarded with tests this week...and it takes its toll.

Some birthday goodies and too busy busy stuffing our faces that we did not take a chance to take pictures at the dinner. We had to finish those dishes!!!

I'm not photogenic, I wish I was. It's a natural face, no makeup what-so-ever. Lately I've been leaving the house without makeup, but I don't even don much makeup anyway, just concealer and a highlighter. On those lazy days I just put on my glasses to shield my problematic laziness.

ingenue

2011-02-23T18:34:00.002-05:00

My birthday is coming up, I'm turning the (in my case) the dreaded eighteen. I don't know why I feel that way, but it's going to happen either way. Maybe if I tell people I'm seventeen, I would stay seventeen forever. :)

Even though I will be moving up the numeral ladder, I still have a wish list for my birthday.

Not on my wish list are: The Pride and Prejudice DVD and nonexistent items: Harry Potter 6 Part 1 DVD(April) and Ingenue (August).

But of course, really I just want Vietnamese cake with my name on it...and sushi. :)

Although I probably won't be getting anything shown below, but I will getting items mentioned above, since I'm a Victorian era movie junkie, book worm, a devout HP fan, and a food devourer...which is good enough for me. <3

would you do the same for me?

2011-02-19T17:43:00.008-05:00

On this beautiful weekend I am doing homework, why AP Literature...it's just torture. I despise analyzing poems. I should've dual enrolled. I have an essay to write, financial aid to fill out in the next 30 days, and scholarships to apply for. I can't believe I still have to go to school for the next 6 years. (Wah!)

But anyways, here's a simple outfit, I have gone for simplicity and less layers and over the top pieces. It's a crop top that I got for $5 and the skirt was also $5, but the heels were $22. I was looking for a chambray skirt for a long time and now I have one.

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Do you know what makes me smile? Bruno Mars doo-wop, 1950s version of his song "Grenade" that he performed at the Grammys.

At 0:27 and 0:52 gives me chills, his smile....melts my insides hahaa

I just love this version, I like anything turned retro.

***Video does not belong to me, youtube account

Pixar: Partly Cloudy

2011-02-14T17:28:00.002-05:00

I went shopping yesterday and didn't spend a single dollar, the more I shop at the local mall, the more I don't want to come back. Throughout the whole shopping day I just wanted to spend money on food, lately I have this urge to go out and eat and I really want sushi right now. I had never been an avid sushi devourer since this year and I cannot believe I have been living my past life without sushi.

Oh and today's Valentine's Day. Happy Valentine's Day!

Here's a heartwarming and a very cute video. I love Pixar animations, I enjoy their theatrical short films, this one happened to be in the special features from, UP.

Do mine the blank black screen in the beginning after the Disney castle, it only last for about 15 seconds.

***video does not belong to me, nor am I associated with Disney [althought I wish, ahahaa]

Downtown Part Two

2011-02-10T15:27:00.002-05:00

Here are some more pics on out downtown musing through the shops and art studios. All of these pictures are unrelated and and not associated with each other by the way.

I just love the patio it's so quaint, but perfect!

I'm really tired, not much to say except I want to take a nap. But I have to run errands...

Downtown Part One: The Dali Museum

2011-02-06T18:19:00.003-05:00

Last week, I had one of my art pieces in a show specifying on surrealism, it was at the new exhibit, The Dali Museum.

It used to be a small museum, but then they moved it to another location and it's really cool. The structure itself was amazing inside and out. At the entrance you can see the rocks and hear the light tinkling sounds of water and behind it were opens spaces nicely put together with plants, cute tables and chairs, and a small garden maze, which was really fun and surprisingly long with twists and turns. There was a patio with these tiny branching trees with twinkling lights on them that I really love. Trees with white lights are something I go crazy for. It was a beautiful evening with soft wind and the basking sun set.

I went with my teacher and my friends. The whole day after school we went to many art studios and browsed the whole downtown and had gelatos. I never had gelatos and it was so good. The afternoon and evening was so perfect, couldn't have asked for better weather. :)

Every picture, except for the first one was taken by Joy's iphone 4. Thanks Joy!

Bunny-Cat

2011-02-02T18:26:00.006-05:00

Chuc Mung Nam Moi! Happy New Year, it's the year of the bunny [Cat in Vietnam]! This is a major 15 day holiday for Asian countries and to celebrate I went to this Vietnamese celebration this past Sunday and it was an interesting, but a painstakingly loud event. I love going to any event that has to do with my heritage and culture and the Lunar New Year is always the best events full of delicious foods and yummy treats!

I did take some pictures, but I took pictures using my phone and considering that my phone is a 3.2 mega pixel camera , there were lots of blurry pictures.

When I walked in, the lights were amazing, and this picture does not do it justice. I wish I could put more pictures up, but it's not good quality, but for a 3.2 mega pixel camera, I'd say this picture turned out quite nicely!

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Isn't this cute? I believe the characters are Korean.

=^.^= [apparently this is a emoticon for cat, I don't use emoticon, besides smiles]

Anyways, have a happy, peaceful, and prosperous year full of love, luck, and good health!

bunnies

Embrace

2011-01-27T18:01:00.001-05:00

I very proud of my heritage and really hate it when people make jokes like "oh, that's because you're Asian" or "I'm or You're a white washed Asian" [I always deny this, as it makes no sense to me] or twinky or the demeaning "c" phrase. I personally don't like any kind of racist term and I do look down upon it, I admit my friends do say stuff and inside it just makes me want to walk away from them. Does my race really affect what I do or say?

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Another annoying thing is when people keep saying compliments that they get and repeat it over and over again, yes, it's nice to receive a compliment, but don't shove in other people's faces.

I know, what a way to start a post. But really, the point is WHY CAN'T WE JUST GET ALONG?

A post different from others, but I need to voice it somehow in a nice respectful manner.
You're probably reading this and think "what happened?" Nothing did, just wanted to speak my mind.

I did have an original post I was going to put up, but let's shed some light on...

LOVE and look at the BEAUTY of each culture.

So wishy-washy. Anyways have a good day.

Food and Company

2011-01-20T17:22:00.000-05:00

I went shopping some time ago, and I found this really nice dress, it was a pale pink dress, aren't neutral colors the trend anyways? It was soft, flow-y and just simple and pretty. I wanted it too, but I thought I should save some money. So, I took the picture of this moment, the moment I lost the dress I wanted. Should've bought it!

I love dresses with sleeves, not long sleeves, but sleeves where my shoulders don't show, so I won't have to wear a cardigan or something to cover up, especially in school. The sleeves were particularly cool, although it was a simple dress, the sleeves were ruffled and tiered like, it felt like I was going to burst out wings and fly. Pretty cool, right?

The brown thing on the floor are my socks.

I should've bought it. No school tomorrow, just spent the day driving around the plaza exploring and eating with my friend. Exams are over and I feel pretty good.

My friend's birthday's dinner is this Saturday, can't wait. Food and some good friends, the best.

Around My Head

2011-01-14T19:13:00.002-05:00

My goodness, what a week. I received some bad news that made me go through numerous amounts of paperwork, phone calls, and shedding of tears; which made me rethink of my future plans after high school. I had originally settled on going to a state university, but after some deep thinking, what if I attend a community college for just a year...maybe two years, but that's just pushing it.

But if I do attend community college first: it would save me much more money, I can ease my way into college life, I can get a job at the same time, and class sizes are a lot smaller [I can barely work with 15+ students around me, let alone an auditorium room with 150+ students]. This is what I keep telling myself. I mean after all my time, effort, and involvement in high school, I should go straight off to a state university, right?

I was sure that I might have to go to a community college for the first year, but then I received an unexpected news from the univeristy who told me the bad news and now I've been accepted. I'm thrilled, but this just adds to more headaches. [I DETEST HEADACHES].

I wonder how come people can easily make decisions so quickly, while I dwell and dwell on every single option.

But you know what is never an option? Food- an option that should never be turned down!

Crab rangoon, the best snack!

Kimchi

2011-01-08T17:12:00.005-05:00

I got a new pair of shoes yesterday! What a surprise! It was a gift from a friend, the reason for the gift? It was a belated Christmas gift. He said it was a way to thank me for helping him out so much in math class, the dreaded pre-calculus. It was very nice of him.

I've found all my math classes easy, but that's a good thing, since I don't particularly enjoy math. Despite my "hatred" for math, I do like to learn and solve equations. I'm just a giant nerd, but that's okay too, I rather be smart than some of these "other" students at my school. Hahaha. Okay, I should stop before it becomes a giant rant. :D

These are the shoes, they're Urban Outfitters Kimchi Blue flats. [They're grey].
Did you also know that kimchi is a traditional Korean dish? They're seasoned veggies!

I wore it with this outfit. I would like to wear this to school, but is the top too short? How long does the top have to be to be able to wear tights? I'm afraid some awful malfunction will occur if I wore this to school. I love wearing tights, they're super comfortable, but I have nothing to wear it with because of my concern as I mentioned a few sentences above.

I'm on a look out for printed tights. I guess it would be a lot easier if I could order stuff online, but I can't. :c

Another random note, I have long legs for being a short person.

My legs take up more than half my height, from my hips to the bottom of my foot; I'm unproportional. [Well, that's what I think.]

new kids on the block

2011-01-05T17:28:00.001-05:00

I'm in an upbeat mood today, I just feel like dancing, dancing, and dancing. I think it's due to the wonderful day at school today. Trying to make senior year memorable, tyring to keep to my New Year's resolution. Why should I hide in a hole? I need to stop worrying.

A little snippet of my life: I love these kids...and me, ahaaha!

My jeans are freakishly tight...I need new blues ones.

I have no idea what we're doing.

This year's is has been so much fun; I suppose I will miss, actually, I will miss this. :D

So sentimental. Let's end this post with a joke.

[Most lame joke ever] "Knock Knock," "Who's there?" "Tad!" "Tad who?"

"Tad's all folks!" [That's all folks!!]

Happy New Year!

2011-01-01T18:49:00.003-05:00

Enter Fashion Geek's Closet Giveaway

Auld Lang Syne

2010-12-30T20:22:00.001-05:00

Five hours from now, it's officially New Years Eve. 2011, I graduate from high school and I turn 18...I would like to stay 17 forever, though, for a reason, I'm still looking. Man, I go to college soon, why do we go to school for such a long time?! I don't even look like a college student, I look too young for my age. Hopefully, the summer months before my college freshmen year, I can try to look my mature.

Like, my men's inspired menswear look, I tried it with my black oxfords/brogues.

I had some time during the holiday break and I felt like dancing.

You can see my awkwardness in front of the camera.

Watching Charlie Brown's New Year, a tradition.

I can't wait to see what 2011 holds, 2010 has been fun and I'm thankful for every moment. But I know I missed out on making memories from being too insecure or not wanting to go out, but now I shall learn to seize the moment and stop having second thoughts. OOOOoooh Yeahhhh!

Maybe, I should try to be more spiritual, find my inner, peaceful self. I watched this cool documentary on Buddhism, I'm not Buddhist, but it looks interesting! I'll fit that in my New Year's resolution, I never keep my resolution, let alone start one. I'll try this time.

HAVE A GOOD YEAR!

$13

2010-12-26T16:21:00.000-05:00

Hi, Happy Holidays...I'm so tired and battling a little cold that worsen when I had to sit outside for a Christmas mass in the freezing cold with a cardigan on, I don't know how other people were were wearing dresses in the cold. I had on a red skirt, but luckily I brought jeans to change in. (I just have sympathy for those who have to stay out in the cold).

Anyways, I hope your holiday(s) was just as eventful as mine. One of the few things I got for Christmas were these simple black oxfords, that I love, but have yet to figure out how I will incorporate it in my wardrobe. I want to make it more feminine. I've seen many ways people wear oxfords, but I've seen mostly the beige, tan, and white oxfords.

I feel like I could collapse right in front of the computer screen, I need sleep. Hopefully, this Tuesday I will travel 2 hours to go post-Christmas shopping.

For now, I'm just updating my ipod as I got a cable to plug my ipod into my car...(that's all I ever really wanted, a $13 cable, seriously!)

Sushi Time

2010-12-20T18:55:00.001-05:00

Tis' the holiday season, what a wonderful time.

Yesterday, I went shopping with my friend and it was crowded for a Sunday. I suppose last minute shopping and sales, I'm likely to go shopping again this week. I spent around $23-$25, I know I'm not a heavy spender (especially when college is right around the corner). I bought a $5 shirt at this new store, "Cotton On," an Australian based brand. I love that store, it's like a edgier version of Forever21.

So, I finally got a pair of oxfords, thanks to the same friend I went shopping with. Nine West black oxfords. A secret Santa thing we did at school, for now it's under the tree, I'm trying to figure out what I should wear with it. I have given up on being fashionable, I'm just going to throw on whatever I have. But I still love following the trends and pouring through many editorials.

Also, I have actually tried sushi! I was hesitant on trying the raw rolls, but it wasn't that bad, I've been on a sushi crave ever since Dec. 17 second period.

Yummmmmmmmy! Does that not look good?! :D

Another thing, I got a car?!

Going to fill out more scholarships, so tedious. Happy Holidays ♥

Miss Watson

2010-11-29T17:01:00.003-05:00

Emma Watson looks great, she looks so effortlessly graceful despite how risque the dress is. She has this air of confidence in the London primere of Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallows.

If I saw this dress at a store, I would probably think, "Ew, it looks like a bird!" But on Emma, she makes it look so pretty! I really love the lace top and her shoes! Although the red poppies are for Remembrance Day, I think it adds to the dress and makes it "pop."

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Love this pictures. She commands the camera and puts all the other celebrities to shame. Hahaha

It's weird how I'm adoring Emma and her style. But she is the only, few celebrities that I can stand, not those reality stars.

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